I love my best friend so much.

I just placed my order online for my Father's Day gifts for my dad.


LED Screwdriver. "See what you're screwing even when the lights are off!"



"Discover the Details — Using Our Magnifier Light with Brilliant LED Illumination."

I think my dad should love the gifts and I think he'll be tickled that I picked out such neat stuff so perfect for him. At least, he and I will think it's neat.

Now, I can't wait until Father's Day. :)

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I would also like to state that my boyfriend is so amazing. Larry made the whole situation last night about ten times better. I love him tremendously because he was the voice of positivity and reason when I needed it the most. It's another reason why we work so well as a pair. We're both there for each other right when the other needs it.


Larry was pretending to sleep on the table at the diner on Thursday night. He was half drunk in this picture too. At least he bought me dinner to deal with his half-drunken ass. It's so much fun having a phone that I can take random pictures with again.

I also have this song set as my ringtone when Larry calls me up.


Completely & Perfectly dedicated to you Larry.

My Dad and I are Coffee ADDICTS.

I definitely inherited my love for coffee from him or the insane need to have a cup of coffee in the morning. For my entire childhood, every day when my mom would make a cup of coffee from my dad she had to keep the coffee can out of my reach because I loved to smell and then I would usually try to dip my hand into the canister to grab a handful to put in my mouth. It was this mysterious adult potion that fascinated me.

True magic. And even to this day when I drink it I feel like it's my little bit of daily magic. Around the 7th grade I started using some of my lunch money to buy myself a cup of coffee at the deli around the corner from school in the morning. Because my neighborhood used to be an awesome close-knit neighborhood... word eventually got back to my mom and she flipped for a minute and then just started letting me have a cup of coffee in the morning in the house instead of buying one. I've pretty much had a cup of coffee every day since then for the past fourteen years.

Yeah, coffee probably is not good. But I love it. It's not even so much that I'm addicted because there are days when i don't have time or any availability to have any. But it just makes me happy. I hate my job and I don't want to go there. I don't know how I am going to find the time to finish all this work for this assignment. But this coffee right here that I am drinking is delicious and is liquid happiness being infused into my body. It will get me going.

Anyway, I actually use drink instant coffee but on days when I am SUPER exhausted I make a cup of my dad's coffee which is one of the sickest strong cups of coffee you can drink.

My dad uses one of these little single serve machines and we just fill it up each time we want to make a cup.



And then fills an entire filter up with this:



Essentially he drinks an entire cup of espresso coffe.

And goddamn, it is in an insanely delicously strong cup of coffee.

Three hours of sleep last night and halfway through this cup of coffee and I feel GREAT. And I love my dad so much. He's the coolest. Really. At least to me...he is. :)

My parents should have been sluts and gotten knocked up when they were in high school so that I could have been alive for awesome stuff like this:


David Gilmour (of Pink Floyd) from 1972.

So hot. Mmm. Today is one of those days when I remember how much I love classic rock. God bless my Dad for raising his daughter exclusively on the good stuff.

The world is ending. Seriously. Is there anything good left?

At least the math has gotten better since the music hasn't.

Dear adamchristopher,

Today for my GRE exam I am wearing my awesome tie-dye shirt that you have made for me.

I feel wrapped in luck and good vibes.

Thank you very much.

It makes a very big difference.

I think I need an adam shirt for every big exam!! :-D

Sincerely,
ineverycolor

This face swooned my fourteen year old heart. He was a celebrity. But I had such a schoolgirl crush and this movie made me really happy. I really loved it. Oh my god, Jackie, do you remember the poster you used to have on your wall.

So while I know that people are dying all over the world every day every second; this face right there made me smile and happy. Now only that, I know I'm going to LOVE this summer's upcoming blockbuster Batman thanks to this man's rle as the joker. So I'm thankful for this happiness and I am going to miss him and I mourn his death.

I am going to have to credit Larry for finding this video on youtube.

It is Janis Joplin's "Piece of My Heart" played to scenes from Nightmare Before Christmas.





Since this is already turning into a youtube post, I'm also going to appreciate another fine woman.

Her name is Dionne Warwick and her voice moves me. I love women and I love being a woman. I always say it since we give birth, we give life and therefore we have more life. It's such a gift to have that and it's really all a matter of channeling into that.

So here is a fantastic song that she has done, "You're Going to Need Me". It's a great anthem for getting over a relationship. You will never need a man the way a man needs a woman. And this is why we should appreciate the wonder of women and being a woman. There's too many women who walk these streets failing to realize that.

I woke up this morning to find Larry watching VH1 Classic playing a Pop Up Video marathon.

Bryan Adams - "Everything I Do (I Do It for You)"


Listening to this song makes me want to shower my boyfriend with a hundred hugs and kisses.

I have been doing a lot of research about what I have to look forward to in the next few years. I like to plan. It a strong motivating force for me. It reminds me that every day is crucial in moving forward in my life and it fills my days with lots of meaning.

My goals for the year are:

• GRE exam. (Complete: February or March 2008)


• Finish Complex Variables and Advance Probability Theory II. (Complete: May 2008)


• GRE Math Subject Test (Complete: August 2008)


• Exam P/1 Actuary Exam (Complete: September 2008)

That's all I have for academic goals for 2008. I'm not going to attempt planning beyond these next nine months. The GRE stuff is for preparation of an application in a phd program. The Exam P/1 Actuary exam is to ensure that I still maintain career options beyond academics. Beyond that, the other big exam in my life that I will have to start worrying about will be the phd qualifying exam that I will have to take in the future. The sooner I start to prepare for that, the better as well. Passing that exam will be my gateway. The more prepared and the easiest that I try to make it, the better off that I will be.



These are some of the sample questions from the Algebra portion of the exam. Just the Algebra. There are about a half dozen other portions.

And trust me, this looks just as foreign to me as it does to you. I have NO idea how to solve any of those problems. I'm going to have to start working on how to write good conside proofs. Hopefully, some of my upcoming classes will help me strengthen that as a skil. I'm excited to work on this though. It's something that I want. I want to be able to read a book of theoretical mathematics like it's an issue of Reader's Digest. haha.

It's a good thing that with my limited free "me" time that studying for stuff like this really gives me pleasure. It's been a defining factor in why I've been remaining calm and collected in my life as of late. My goals are oriented towards what I love and enjoy. My life has truly flourished.

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These are a few of the upcoming Amazon books that I have bookmarked. I have them arranged in the order that I plan to purchase. Some of them I don't need yet. The first two I'd like to buy within the next few weeks.

"Few beginning graduate students in mathematics and other quantitative subjects possess the daunting breadth of mathematical knowledge expected of them when they begin their studies. This book will offer students a broad outline of essential mathematics and will help to fill in the gaps in their knowledge. The author explains the basic points and a few key results of all the most important undergraduate topics in mathematics, emphasizing the intuitions behind the subject. The topics include linear algebra, vector calculus, differential and analytical geometry, real analysis, point-set topology, probability, complex analysis, set theory, algorithms, and more. An annotated bibliography offers a guide to further reading and to more rigorous foundations."

"Graduate school marks the first step toward a career in mathematics for young mathematicians. During this period, they make important decisions which will affect the rest of their careers. Here now is a detailed guide to help students navigate graduate school and the years that follow.

In his inimitable and forthright style, Steven Krantz addresses the major issues of graduate school, including choosing a program, passing the qualifying exams, finding an advisor, writing a thesis, and getting that first job. As with his earlier guide, How to Teach Mathematics, he avoids generalities, giving clear advice on how to handle real situations. The book also contains a description of the basic elements of a mathematical education, as well as a glossary and appendices on the structure of a typical department and university and the standard academic ranks"

"This book is a compilation of approximately nine hundred problems, which have appeared on the preliminary exams in Berkeley over the last twenty years. It is an invaluable source of problems and solutions for every mathematics student who plans to enter a Ph.D. program. Students who work through this book will develop problem solving skills in areas such as real analysis, multivariable calculus, differential equations, metric spaces, complex analysis, algebra, and linear algebra. The problems are organized by subject and ordered in an increasing level of difficulty. This new edition contains approximately 120 new problems and 200 new solutions. It is an ideal means for students to strengthen their foundation in basic mathematics and to prepare for graduate studies."

"Covers 6 aspects of graduate school mathematics: Algebra, Topology, Differential Geometry, Real Analysis, Complex Analysis & Partial Differential Equations. Contains a selection of more than 500 problems & solutions based on the Ph.D. qualifying test papers of a decade of influential universities in North America. Paper. DLC: Mathematics - Problems, exercises, etc."</a>

And that's my plans for the next few weeks. Am I boring you guys out there yet with my nerdness.

My fantastic new laptop.

A lot of you on my friends list have been posting pictures more lately. That's inspired me to want to try to post more pictures more often or at least carry a camera around a little more frequently again. I miss recording with pictures. It helps solidify memories and it's good if I ever want to develop a future scrapbooking hobby.

(As if I don't already have enough hobbies.)

My life officially has meaning.

For... I have played World of Warcraft. My days spent on the internet will never be the same.

I am infinitely amused.

Yeah, I'm a tree hugging hippie.

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Protecting the environment is a primary social responsibility we have, regadless of how it effects business.

Newsflash! How the fuck do you plan to run a business without a planet? I'm sure I don't need to debate this with anybody here on my friends list. But it's just a perspective of our American people. And is Obesity really America's biggest problem? I think it's got to be stupidity. Newsflash! If you eat a bag of doritos, you are going to get fat. While I'm not saying we should all have an Atkin's Diet, but if you eat a diet of bread, cereal and pasta... your entire diet is useless sugar and not many whole nutrients. You're going to get fat. But I don't care about the size of every individual American. Be as big or tiny as you want. It's really just the intelligence that bothers me more.

My beliefs and thoughts deviate so far away from the norm.

It must be my "very superior" IQ.



I'm just not thinking like the rest of world. You know the way I think, makes sense. I'll end my rant now.

This is turning out to be one of the quietest New Year's Eve that I have had a in a long long long time. In the end plans to go to a party kind of went down the drain. It seems like a lot of people are staying home for New Year's Eve this year. It's a Monday night. I dunno. Not a big partying kind of mood night.

On top of it all, I'm just plain exhausted. I am so tired. Like if this wasn't New Year's Eve I would have been asleep a few hours ago. My body is aching with exhaustion. I need a cup of coffee or something because I don't want to fall asleep this early. I'm going to make one as soon as 12:00 is over. New Year's is my favorite holiday though. It's a 60 second holiday. I can deal with that.

Next year will be a better New Year for partying. I think the quiet mood of this New Years Eve just represents all the work that I have ahead of me for 2008. There won't be a lot of partying but it will be joyful and rewarding.

So that's the overall theme for my next year. No serious resolutions except to keep up with the lifestyle I've been living these past few months. I'd like to start swimming once I'm back at Hunter College and take advantage of their gym. Not because I am obsessed with my body but I miss the feel of swimming. It felt good with my body. I'd like to find a way to continue with yoga but my life right now requires so much constant flexibility in everything that I do, that it's not a major issue. It's not worth creating an even busier and stressful life for it.

Other than that, catch up on a few books I've cast aside.

Live a little cleaner and more organized and develop my cooking skills a little further. I actually cooked this really awesome plate of Turkey & Spinach Stuffed Shells. Yesterday, while doing two loads of laundry in my kitchen, I also cooked up a family plate of stuffed shells. Enough dinner for my dad to eat at home and then two big lasagna sized platters that I brought to Larry's house. In the end I stuffed approximately 80 shells. I was planning on bringing one of those platters to the party tonight but now it looks like Larry and I just have extra food to pig out on tomorrow.

Tomorrow is just all about resting. Eating good food. Watching more of season 2 of Dexter. Doing some laundry. And then getting ready for work on Wednesday. Here's to the holidays finally being over though. It will be a relief to experience the quiet peace that is January. This has been an exhausting time for me trying to be there for everybody on top of trying to be there for myself. I'm spending the entire day tomorrow with Larry too which will be nice. I've lost the opportunities to really relax with him because I'm always going to the hospital lately.

So tomorrow is a day off and a start to another year. I'm really happy with 2007. So I'm not even going to say a better year. Just another great year. Keep it coming.

I'm very antsy for 5 o'clock to come.

Hello 4 Day weekend! I'm also excited to start my Christmas shopping.

I can't wait for Christmas Eve. I'm going to make sure that Larry and I have a true fantastic old fashioned Christmas Holiday.

Especially since it will be in the midst of spending half the weekend at the hospital visiting my mom. Spending Christmas in the hospital. It really sucks.

Anyway pictures will follow on Tuesday.

I'm growing up. I must be. Because it's 11:30 on a Friday night and I've got my pajamas on and I'm ready to get into bed and all that I can think about is how I want to wake up at 7:30 in the morning tomorrow to start sorting through laundry and finish the rest of my chores for the weekend before the afternoon. Life has been really hectic for me so I have had little time to waste. My time has been managed and engineered to peak optimal performance. Between working all day long, visiting my mom at the hospital all the way on another end of the city, helping my dad out, spending time with Larry on another opposite end of the city and then working through this maze to get myself back in school and all these graduate student stuff done ASAP it's been hectic.

So, I think I'm working on taking 2 classes at Hunter for the Spring semester. First day of classes will be on January 25th. It's also looking like I'm going to take the GRE exam. Most likely on the 02/02/08 date. So much stuff going on.

My brain is going to be buried in textbooks.

But that's alright. My love for knowledge, learning, academics, mathematics, science, logic, problem solving and all of these things just grow more and more as I get older.

I don't know. There's something about our modern culture that I'm finding erking. Too much focus on entertainment. Everything is always about seeking amusement. Right now. It's like this drug and our culture is getting more and more addicted to it. I don't want to come home and watch television. I don't want to spend my free time going to malls and shopping in stores. I don't know. I just feel like our brains are eating way too much fucking candy these days. It's horrible.

So much sugar. Sugar in our diets. Sugar in our lives. It's not worth rotting my brain. Even the world of academics is falling apart under our modern culture. Maybe I'm being pessimistic but I really think everything is starting to fall apart. I think our true mentors, models and heroes of our world have passed away. These new generations that are rising and the old generations that are passing away makes me feel like we're now being led in darkness with no torches to guide us. Soon we will forget what we used to be without all this high technology fueling us.

There's nothing wrong with technology. I support it. I use it every day. But I refuse to let it impair on the quality of my intellect. I will not let machines think for me... entertain me.... drug me out to this dull state where I'm merely passing time.

I'm going to live my life.